The 'have a moan' thread

[carmelle]

I have several assignments to be doing at the moment but I can't seem to focus.

[Formerly Known as FKAJ]

  ~Lynd~ said:

  Belle. said:

  Formerly Known as Josh said:

  Belle. said:

I'm going to have a moan too.

The guy I have quietly liked for about 2 years is leaving.

I had so many chances at the beginning of that 2 years to do something about it, but I was too shy.

We were never really 'good mates' but we could hold a decent conversation.

Now he's leaving. So I just asked him about it friend-ily... told him that I'd miss him, but I didn't really get much of a response.

So I realised I wasted 2 years of my emotional life, worrying.

Now I feel exhausted

I know completely how you feel.

Thank god I'm not the only one. I actually feel so empty...

I'm always thinking, "Oh, if only I could go back..." but I realise, I was too young (emotionally) to have dealt with it. Plus, we're from completely different worlds. His school group was over there, and mine was over here. It was probably never possible.

This is only the 2nd time I've had my heart broken. Well, maybe not broken. Ripped a little...

The reason I probably didn't tell him was because the first time I told someone I liked them, their friends got in the way and made a fool of me, so I was afraid of getting hurt.

Plus, I've tried to find replacement in that 2 years by dating other people. Didn't help.

I relapsed (as I call it - lol )

Advice time... don't date people for 'replacement'. DOES NOT HELP.

Woah. Long ramble

I feel i'm home...I've liked this guy for about a year and not said anything.My friends have told him but he doesn't believe them.I've been debating weather or not to tell him,i keep changing my mind.One one hand i want to know for sure and not die wondering but on the other i don't want to get hurt and be made to feel like an idiot.My heart's already fragile atm.

Last night i saw him and i said to my friend i'm over it,i've spent a year of my life obsessing over someone i'm pretty sure will never care about me the way i want him to.If i'm not going to tell him i'm going around in circles.

Then i proceded to tell her i was going to set him up with this other girl which is a no no considering i want to kill most of the girls i see talking to him.She seems nice enough though.

There's also this other guy but i don't really like him like that even though he's cute...another no no.

It's not helping that none of my friends think i'll stick to not liking him.One said i'll be back to liking him by today,another said i'll just be jealous of any girl he's with and another said so you're gonna sacrafice yourself....Like i actually have a chance!

It also doesn't help that he chose last night to come over and say hi for the first time in a while.And as he went past me he smiled which melts me and makes me think he needs to wear a health warning...''Caution,Contains Hot Stuff''.

I'm not gonna tell my friends they're probably right and by next week i'll most likely be drooling again.I don't know what to do.

Sorry about the long post but considering the subject was on my exact moan i thought i'd share even if i'm not making much sence.

I now think i have a stress headache!

I guess I should tell my version of this story.

During 2006, I developed a private crush on a girl in a few of my classes. By February 2007, I realised that I was actually in love with her. So I slipped an anonymous note in her locker on Valentines Day. She never figured out that it was me. So 8 months later I followed it up, establishing that I also wrote the first note and this time left my name. She replied, letting me down gently and telling me that she was already in a relationship.

What's painful is that I already knew she had a boyfriend, and the point behind the second note was more to get some kind of... feedback I guess is the word. Find out if telling her earlier might have changed anything.

So not only was the note a waste of time but so was much of the last year and a half.

[Cal]

Exam update.

Math ONE was actually OK. The teacher picked a bitch of a paper, but I think I did well in it.

Irish TWO...well, that was a different story. I had a look at a PM I received a few weeks ago from a fellow 6th year member here.... kinda helped me a lot today! So, you know who you are, thanks!

MOAN: English TWO and Math TWO tomorrow. Now THAT is a crappy day.

[Cerise]

^^ How many more exams have you left?

[Cal]

4

Those two tomorrow, then Art: History & App. and Geography.

[Cerise]

Eurgh. Not great subjects them! I never got the grips with Geography. I did History.

[Cal]

I hate it. I really regret picking it.

[Cerise]

Yeah. I actually did pick it, but I changed to History then because I really couldn't stand it

[Cal]

Well, I got put in to History but I wanted Art... so I had to change. Geography is on with Biology and T.D.

[Eli]

I found out earlier today that one of my friends is going in to hospital soon. They don't know what's wrong, cause he had a headache and was bothered with a lot of what he thought was migraine a couple of weeks ago, and now he's been really ill for about two weeks. He has these horrible headaches and blurred vision and things like that and now they want to put him in hospital to try to find out what's wrong. I know it's probably nothing serious, but I can't help getting a bad feeling, cause symptoms like those usually aren't a very good sign