Don't do it. Your life is worth more than you realise.
I won´t =)
Ugh, I hate it when people do that. It's like they don't even want to listen to you. You do have problems, and they're real, and they're hurting you. That should be obvious to anyone with half a wit. But people like that, it's like everything you say is an inconvenience to their perfect view of the world, in which you should just be NORMAL and be happy like everyone else, because there are so many people who's lives are a lot harder than your's, but they're happy, so why aren't you? What's wrong with you?? But it's always a rhetorical question, isn't it? Because if you actually try to tell them what's wrong, or that you don't even know why you feel the way you do, then that's never good enough. They always want to double talk you and tell you that you don't really have a problem, it's all in your head, and if you were a better person, you'd just hurry up and get over it to stop being so annoying.
So that's why I don't like counselors. Some of them on the rare occasion are willing to actually listen to you and genuinely want to help you, but most of them in my experience are only out to tell you what they want you to say, not to listen to what you NEED to say...
This might all be sounding really negative, but here's the positive - when you're ready to deal with this stuff, you'll find the strength to do it. It won't come from people patronizing you and telling you to get over it, it'll come from something inside you that tells you that it's time for you to move on from that self-doubt and hopelessness. The tricky part is keeping some glimmer of faith that that will happen for you, even if you can't see how right now. And above all, DON'T do anything that would leave you without the chance of recovery, like suicide.
If you're depressed, I say be depressed. I say get out everything that needs to be got out, and screw anyone who tells you that your wrong to have emotions. That's why I love this thread. You can say whatever you want without people judging you. The more you bottle things up and try to hide them, the more they will eat at you. So let it out, and to hell with whoever gets in the way! If they don't like you for who you really are, and if they're not willing to let you have your weak moments and to be HUMAN, then that really is their problem, not yours.
Thanks so much for that Emma! The thing with the person I talked to was just that.. she was talking about all the other girls that came in also and was like: well, I dont get why they do it because they are such lovely girls :S
And she was one of those bright and bubbly, the world is a bed of rose-pedals kind of a person.. :sI really dont like that :S
The thing is that I also talked to a friend of mine about some of it and he is just telling me that it is a load of rubbish for me to feel this and this as it is not true :S And that (as I have told him) does not help me at all as I can not help how I feel and him saying it is rubbish just makes me feel stupid and even more alone with the problems than before.. :S
And yeah.. This thread is a really good thread